Too many books, too little time.
If I Stay - Gayle Forman I had this book on hold for months and I just couldn't gathered the courage to read it since everyone was saying what a sad book it was. Today, for some weird reason, I had an epiphany and thought to myself: "Okay, it's time. Stop being a wuss!". And now I'm ashamed I hadn't read it sooner.
One thing is true, this book is very sad. And not only sad but also agonizing and heartbreaking. I didn't cried so much with a book in a long time.

When I was a kid I had the same recurrent awake nightmare: That I had lost my parents, and after I used to have mini panic attacks thinking what the hell would I do if that turned real. Yes, I still would have my sister, but I would be completely lost anyway. This lasted for years until I grow up and realized that there's nothing we could do about the unpredictability of life.

But to Mia, that was a reality. In a second she had a completely normal life, with a family that she loved, a great boyfriend and a very good best friend, in the next second the family was gone and she was in a coma in the hospital. This book is the journey about the time she spends in a coma, deciding if she wants to wake up and live again or join her family. She tells us what is happening in the hospital and tell us her story trough flashbacks. And what a great story it is.

I love every single one character in this story and her love with Adam was so damn great. It killed me so much how desperate he was for her to wake up again. I can't wait to read the second one and hopefully, see the happy ending that she so much deserves. Because Mia was definitely one the best book heroines I've seen in a while!

Yes, it's sad. Yes, it's heartbreaking. But it so, so damn worthy! :)